One of my greatest challenges is in successful verbal, face-to-face interactions. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE to see and meet each of you. Nevertheless, for as much as I study, feel, know and think, I have such a hard time articulating or remembering the information when I am asked on the spot. It happens too often that I "draw a blank" on subject matter and information I know is in my brain.. Then after the moment and opportunity are long gone I think of everything I should have said... which of course tends to be followed by a "now those people think you have no idea what you're doing, omg why are you like this" rant from my inner critic.
It's so much easier for me to communicate through written channels. I am much more efficient and getting my point across when my brain is not pressured and I have time to process and organize my thoughts. I suppose I could stop going out to markets and hide in my safe space, but I won't. I choose growth. I choose to keep trying and to day by day and interaction by interaction to get better. Because I love to meet my supporters, I love to support others at the market and I choose to meet my challenges head on. So if you have been victim to one of my blank space moments, I apologize that I was unable to effectively answer your question. But honestly if you made it all the way to my social media I must not have given you too bad of an impression. I put a lot of time, effort and study into my practice and my craft. I hope in time to be as quick and articulate with my spoken words as I am in writing.
Marco Solis, Lake Tawakoni State Park 2021
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